lets_be_honest_here on Xanga

Weblog

Thursday, 20 August 2009

quotes

"The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends.
It takes up most of your time, and what do you get at the
end? A death. I think it should all go backwards.
You should die first, to get it out of the way. Then you live
in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too
young, then you go to work. You work forty years until
you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You drink,
you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade
school, you become a kid, you play, you have no
responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into
the womb, you spend your last nine months floating,
then you finish off as an orgasm."

We all think we're going to be great, and we feel a little bit
robbed when our expectations aren't met. But sometimes
expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply
pales in comparison to the unexpected. You've got to
wonder why we cling to our expectations because the
expected is just what keeps us steady, standing still.
The expected is just the beginning. The unexpected is
what changes our lives.
-- Grey's Anatomy

Don't go looking for love, let it find you. That's why it's
called falling. You don't mean to, it just happens.

They called what happened to them "near-death
experiances," and they talked about how amazing it was to
know what death was like, and still be able to live. I feel
like I'm having a near-life experiance, like I used to be
alive, and I know what that's like, but now I'm doing
somethingelse. I don't want to die or anything, I just feel
like I'm not as alive as I used to be.

It's possibility that keeps us all going, not guarantee. That's
why you always have to take chances.

Truth is, you scare the shit out of me. You make me feel as
if I'm not alone. Yet, I know any minute you have the
ability to rip that feeling from me. Truth is, I love you,
and that in itself is scary enough.

I know just how it feels to think of the right thing to say too
late.
-- Robert Frost

If you asked me a year ago, I would have told you what you
wanted to hear. Now I know that I can't please everyone,
and I'm sorry if that hurt your feelings. I can't make myself
unhappy to please you, and I won't try.

And it's been 10 days without you in my reach,
and the only time I've touched you is in my sleep.
But time has changed nothing at all.
You're still the only one that feels like home.
I've tried cutting the ropes, tried letting you go,
but you're still the only one that feels like home.

I want a trip inside your head, spend the day there, hear the
things you haven't said, see what you see. I wanna hear
you when you call, do you feel anything at all? I wanna
see your thoughts take shape and walk right out.

I don't know where I'm going, but I promise it won't be boring.

It's like once you've been hurt, you're so scared to get
attached again, like you have this fear that every person
you start to like is going to break your heart.

You will never forget your first love. That's what makes it so
special. You love so hard, so deeply, and so intensely
because you don't know any different. It's the best thing
until it's over. Eventually you love again, but you love
differntly. You will love more carefully and more
cautiously, continually comparing that perosn to your first love

I believe that two people are connected at the heart. And it
doesn't matter what you do, or who you are or where you
live. There are no boundaries or barriers if two people are
destined to be together.

It's not that I believe everything happens for a reason.
It's just that I think that some things are meant to be
broken. Imperfect. chaotic. It's the universe's way of
providing contrast, you know? there has to be a few holes
in the road because that's just how life is.

It happens to everyone as they grow up; you find out who
you are and what you want, and then you realize that the
people you've known forever don't see things the way you
do. And so you keep the memories but find yourself
moving on.

I don't have a fear of commitment. I have a fear of
abandonment. We all screw things up. I screw things up.
Especially with the people I Love. I get needed, I get moody,
I get distant, I want to be close, I get confused. I don't
understand all of it. But I keep pushing, because I hope in
this thing; the universe. There's no way that I'm the only
person out there who wants something this bad. If I want it
someone else out there must too.

"Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing
them."
- Grey's Anatomy

Sunday, 07 June 2009

just ranting and raving.

Ok, so I know that this has nothing to do with icons, graphics, quotes, surveys, etc, however I want to mention how much each generation is changing more and more. I work with kids, elementary aged. There is one child in particular who is 7 years old. All the little girls love him. Even some of the girls that are older than him have little crushes on him. It is beyond ridiculous. We even found a note from a 9 year old who wrote him a note apologizing that she did not get to give him his surprise which..get this...was going to be her putting her butt on him..wtf?! And then behind the note to him she wrote a little diary entry on a separate paper that said how much she liked this boy but sometimes he just made her so mad because he was mean to her and she did not like some of the things he would say. Damn. These are not issues 7, 8, and 9 year old girls should be dealing with.. They still have a few years until they should have to deal with guys being jackasses to them. It makes me so mad. When I was that young, of course there were little crushes that people had but it was never taken farther than that. We were actually still "innocent minded".
These kids are watching shows like family guy and that 70's show, which are two of my favorite tv shows, but sorry, I would not let my 7 year old daughter be watching it. It just amazes me with what some of these kids come up with.
54

what's the first thing that pops into your mind when you think of suspenders?
nothing really

are you happy about the way the weather is today?
it's not raining, so that's nice. It has rained for like 20 days straight

do you say "i'm sorry" often?
sometimes

who do you think you relate best to?
no one

what's the best joke you've read on a popsicle stick? if you can't think of one, when was the last time you had one of those?
i can't think of one. it has been a few years probably, lol wow

if possible, do you think you'd like to have a pool inside your home?
that would be cool

has the power ever gone off while you were shopping somewhere?
yep

do you ever wish that your eye was a camera? so when you blinked, there’d be a photograph?
oh wow, that would be really awesome

what was the last dr. seuss book you read?
i don't remember

have you ever seen the movie mr. magorium's wonder emporium?
nope

are there seat covers in your car?
there aren't but i want to get some

did you make those fold up fortune teller things when you were younger?
yep

does your best friend have a camera?
i think so

when was the last time you received a postcard in the mail?
last summer when my brother was in camp

are you good at explaining things?
depends

do you use tabs in your internet browser?
everyday

what is most popular in your town?
probably the sawgrass mall. it's like the next biggest tourist attraction in florida after disney, lol

do you get excited when google changes their logo on holidays?
sometimes.

what do you think of patrick dempsey?
he's so sexy <--agreed. for his age, hell ya

have you ever had pancakes that were shaped as something special?
mickey mouse.

Thursday, 15 January 2009

53

What was the last pill that you took?
Birth Control.

Who was the last person to call you?
Briana

Think of your bestfriend/bestfriends, are they virgins?
i don't think I should be telling their business.. sorry.

You're currently listening to?
commercial

How are you feeling right now?
I'm alright

When was the last time you smiled?
idk. a little while ago.

Do you like anyone?
yea

Who was the first person you talked to today?
mom.

What is something you are NOT looking forward to?
ugh.long story.

Are you a forgiving person?
yea, too forgiving

How late did you stay up last night?
4:45am. damn.

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
yes

When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
like last week.

What did you do Sunday?
in the morning I went to a brunch for my grandfather's birthday and then i think that was it..i think i just chilled at home after that

When is the next time you'll hug someone?
tonight probably

What are you doing this coming weekend?
working on saturday..sunday. idk

Are you afraid of roller coasters?
yea pretty much. i can't go on them anyways cause i have like serious motion sickness.

Do you know any songs that remind you of summer?
yes

What were you doing at 7:30 AM?
Sleeping

Do you tell your mom everything?
not at all

Has anyone ever crawled through your window?
Nope.

How did you and your number 2 become friends?
we worked over the summer at camp and we were kinda friends, and then the next summer the supervisor put us in our own group so it was just the two of us and 25, 5 year olds and we bonded :)
Did you speak to your mother today?
yea

Do you have plans for tomorrow?
Yes

Who was the last person in your bedroom?
briana

Are you missing someone?
yea.

If I looked under your bed, what would I find?
shoes, boxes

How do you usually sleep?
i move all around

Where were you at 3:02 AM this morning?
in my room

Are you someone that worries too much?
yea. blah

Do you think some people are crazy for wearing jeans in the summer?
No

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Yes

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
I do

Do you know what you're wearing tomorrow?
Not yet

Are you irritated with anyone?
Not at the moment.

Is there something you should be doing right now?
not really.

How has the week been?
good and bad.

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
yea...

What're you looking forward to?
hmm..

Do you know anyone who’s pregnant?
Yes.

Are you shy?
a little bit

Are you currently wanting any body piercings or tattoo?
i want another tattoo

Does your phone go off in the middle of the night?
sometimes..

Last time you saw fireworks?
new years

Are you allergic to anything ?
nope

Do you have anything to complain about?
don't we all?

Is there someone you will never forget?
Yes

Do you hate being alone?
sometimes i don't mind being alone

Is there a girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
Yes.

Can you live a day without TV and computer?
yea

Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
no

Do you have anything on your mind at this moment?
yes

Monday, 12 January 2009

52

Start out with your name?
Michelle.
Is there a girl who knows pretty much every thing about you?
yea.
What do you hear?
Ruby, she lost 100 lbs!! yay
Where are you?
My room
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name starts with a C?
No.
Do you take anything for granted?
Yeah.
What would you do if your best friend turned gay?
wow..idk..lol that would be funny
Would you ever kiss someone who smokes?
andrew smokes
Will you be in a relationship within the next week?
I guess not.. :(
Do you eat KFC?
yes
Who's bed, besides your own, did you sleep in last?
andrews
Do you have any scars?
Yeah.
Is there anyone that always makes you smile when you talk to them?
ye,a i guess. .
Who can you blame for your bad mood today?
my relationship being over..damn 2 1/2 years.
Are you afraid to grow up?
not really at this point. im ready to get out of the house, get a good job, get a degree..and meet mature men.lol
If you just drank 14 beers what you would be doing?
that would be serious. i would not be concious. i would possibly be in the hospital
Want someone you cant have?
ehh
Do you have a secret that you've never told anyone?
ya.
Something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
yes.
Is there something that you havent told anyone that you actually would like to?
ya
Is there something that reminds you of someone every time you see/hear it?
yea.
Was the first person you talked to today a boy or a girl?
Boy.
Do you like your life as of now?
ehh
Do you drink coffee?
sometimes
Do you crack your knuckles?
Yeah.
What were you doing 20 minutes ago?
putting ringtones on my phone
Does anyone ever call you baby?
no
Have you ever liked someone older than you?
yes.
Are you tanned?
Not right now. ahh..not good
Any apologies from anyone recently?
yes
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
no
Where do you plan on living within the next few years?
hopefully i will get an apartment. it will probably be in the same area i already live in.
What was the first thing you did this morning?
went and pet my dog. aw. she is so old and might be put to sleep within the next week :'(
Are you a cuddler?
yea

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means everything to you?
yes
What is your usual bedtime?
no bed time what so ever.
What are you doing after this?
idk
Does it take a lot for you to cry?
eh..not really. im really emotional.
Do you have trust issues?
yea.
Who was your last missed call from?
idk
Have you had a fight recently?
Yea.
Do you try and make noise when it's silent?
sometimes..
Are you single?
ugh.idk. i guess
Do you like marmite?
what is that?.
How about mayonaise?
it's alright. only a little bit though
Whats your favourite:
Film:
nemo, 50 first dates
Person:
hmm
Game:
pyramid solitaire.
Band:
no favorite...
Hobby:
hmm...
Food:
hmm..
Drink:
tea
Flavour icecream:
Chocolate
Flavour chapstick:
the raspberry one i have now.
Do you have any bad habits? What are they?
i have a lot. lets not list them
Do you shop in Hot Topic?
ive gotten something here and there. i wouldnt say i have "shopped" there.
Whats your opinion of High School Musical?
ugh.
What about Hannah Montana?
ugh again
Where do you like to eat?
my house..??
How many texts do you have on your phone?
50
Who are they mostly off of?
briana
Have you saved any texts?
no
Do you watch Big Brother?
No.